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Sep. 17th, 2007

I'm debating if I should go to CRU tonight. (Campus Crusade for Christ).  My friends keep telling me that I should go...but it creeps me out.

Reasons to Go:
Friends
Rockin' music
I might meet more spiffy people like Kat and Rachael. (We met as I escaped from Cru's clutches 2 years ago)

Reasons Not to Go
1) It has Crusade in the name.  I've always thought of the Crusades as this attempt to take over the Holy Lands in which many people died unnecessarily because of misinformation. I understand why someone would want to take back what's their's...but so many religions lay claim to poorly compartmentalized chunks of the "Middle East".  It's a big mess, and has been for a very long time.  Having the 'Crusade' in the name is kind of like advertising to me "Hey! Look! We're going to mess shit up while thinking we're self-righteous! Yayz0rs!1!!"

2) Going to a religious gathering just for the friends and the music is not a good reason. Besides, if I go for that, then I might eventually end up brainwashed into believing their "Wacked out beliefs". *

3) A girl I know that keeps trying to get me to come to CRU made fun of this socially awkward boy 2 years ago. ...I just realized how slightly lame that sounded. I'm holding things against her that she did 2 years ago. Maybe some of that Christian forgiveness is in order. But it gets me thinking: if people at Cru are not accepting of people that aren't socially well-established, then how will I fare? Granted, my friends go to Cru, so I'm kinda established...but...but...WHAT IF I TURN INTO THE BAD PARTS OF SAVED?! I realize that I probably don't have it in me, but then, the mind is a tricky thing. You sometimes doesn't realize what you're turning into.

BUT I WANT A NETWORK OF CHRISTIAN FRIENDS.
That extends outside of Rachael and Christie. You ladies are fantastic. But, you're two people. That sounds really mean. I don't mean it like that. I just...remember what it's like to have this massive network of people I can talk about my faith with. I can't really talk to people within my department, because I've had some of them get all "But you're a science major!  You should be an Atheist, or an Agnostic at the very most. There is no proof for any of this and you're deluding yourself."

I'm going to be a scientist and a Christian. It is possible, you know.

* My friend, who is my numero uno Christian inspiration (yes, you are. So Nyah.) says that CRU's theology is whack. I believe her.

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zarhooie
Sep. 17th, 2007 08:19 pm (UTC)
If you're freaked out by CRU, then don't go. Nothing you'll get from them, spiritually or otherwise, will do you any good if you're uncomfortable.

Your gut is a good thing to listen to most of the time, sweetie. You know what is best for you all the way down to your toes.
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